Yet another migraine
Right, excuse the scattiness of this post, and any typos that may occur at the beginning, but I am typing this blind, well, just about. I am in the middle of having a migraine, from what I can tell so far, it’s gonna be a pretty hefty one, so here is a step by step account of what I actually go through every time I have one. I’m going to try to stay at work, and stick this through, all for you, the reader, so you can try and comprehend what these do to me.
I can just about make out from my systray clock, that it is now 10:32. About 15 mins ago this started, so that’s makes our first entry at 10:17:
[10:17am] Started getting tunnel vision, thought nothing of it at first, but when rubbing my eyes did nothing, at all, I started getting worried.
[10:20am] Tunnel vision has blurred everything bar a small circle in the centre in my vision where I can just about make things out. This is when I realised that the shit is gonna hit the fan, so in search of painkillers I go.
[10:25am] Mission accomplished, thank god I know this office like the back of my hand, pre-empting anyone moving their chairs in front of me was a hard task. Neck 3x200mg Nurofen just as the tunnel vision starts to clear and my usual aura begins. Flashing lights just off centre to the right, in a sort of horizontal zig-zag pattern, only one line, but with vertical zig-zags within it, mainly red, orange and green in colour. Had to run downstairs to fix someone’s keyboard, when the idea of blogging this came to me, which brought me to 10:32
[10:37am] Now, zig-zags still there, I can feel the tension building up at the front right hand side of my head just above my eye. Not had a right sided migraine in a while, and yes, they do normally hurt more, told you this was gonna be a bitch. Those of you worried about me using a monitor etc, don’t. I have my screens set to decent resolutions with a very high refresh rate, also, I have had my eyes tested, and various other tests by various other opticians and doctors, monitors don’t cause my migraines. I just suffer from chronic migraine, full stop! Or “period” as an American might say. I have no triggers, chocolate, cheese, citrus and caffeine are the main known triggers, known as the 4Cs, but I removed them all from my diet for 4 months a year or so ago, and guess what, still got migraines. My aura is beginning to go, pain to come shortly, I will keep you updated.
[10:47am] Vision is beginning to return to normal, just spoke to a good friend of mine about the idea, and her response was, and I quote “GOD.. GO HOME” You may think she is right, I should go home, rest, recover and recuperate. So let me put this to you, if I were in a traffic accident, say I got knocked flying off my bike, landed so badly that I smashed my leg up, and needed it amputated (bit fucking drastic, I know) I would have two choices. Firstly, I could cry, whinge, moan and complain about it all, have someone look after me, fend for me, wait on me hand and foot, twenty four hours a day, seven days a week, fifty two weeks a year, or I could get on with my life, as normally as I possibly could, keep my chin up, and not let it get me down. Agreed? The same as anyone with a life affecting condition would do, epilepsy being a very good example.
Also, take my dad’s situation, back in 2000 he had 3 heart attacks, the last of which nearly killed him, one I had the most horrific experience of witnessing. He was in and out of hospital for the next six months to a year, he had angioplasties, stress tests, and eventually stents had to be implanted into the section of artery that kept collapsing. When he was eventually released from hospital permanently, he was prescribed a massive concoction of medications, just to keep him alive. Aspirin, Warfarin, ACE inhibitors, Lipid lowering med’s, other cholesterol controlling substances, you name it, he has probably taken it at some point since his attacks. Now, to the best of his ability, he carried on his “normal” life, his “normal” routine, as a father, husband and self-employed member of society. He continued to run his business the best he could, keep his life under control the best he could, and this man also suffers from migraine, which due to his other medication, he has to be careful with what he takes to combat the attack, as it could affect his heart. And that is the new perspective I have on this horrible affliction, I’m not going to let it get me down, I’m not going to let it control and dictate my life like it used to. Sure, I will take it easy when I am having an attack, but I refuse point blank to let this control my life any more. I will take the painkillers and anti-inflammatories, and try, to the best of my ability, not to let this get me down
[11:28am] That went on a bit, and I got distracted by work half way through, I just finished the last entry, the aura is completely gone, and the pain has shifted, I have a throbbing at the front left side of my head now, from the left temple to I would say about the dead centre of my left eye, as well as the throbbing. Ohh, and the nausea has begun… quite strongly.
[11:53am] For the first time since deciding to do this, I am thinking it may be a bad fucking idea. So bad that I just messaged my boss to ask for the PM off work. [Excuse the upcoming graphic-ness] I just made it to the toilet in time to be sick due to the pain I am in, my head is throbbing. Add to that the fact that when you retch it increases blood pressure to the head, causing more pain, causing more retching, it's a horrible cycle, one I have come to terms with during my years of suffering from migraine, one I wouldn't wish on my worst of enemies, and I mean that.
[12:07pm] Had enough, going home, and I think my initial point was made:
No matter how positive I think, how early I catch an attack and try and treat it, nothing helps. I think I could live as an amputee, I could even cope suffereing from epilepsy, as once your attack is over, you are semi back to normal, but with this pain, I just can't do it. I am gonna stop at the health centre on the way home to pick up a prescription for Tylex, these were the only painkillers I ever took that managed to at least control the pain I am in. The link below gives a good insight into some of the associated experiences with migraines, for now, this man needs his bed, and some dark.
http://www.mamashealth.com/migraine.asp
I can just about make out from my systray clock, that it is now 10:32. About 15 mins ago this started, so that’s makes our first entry at 10:17:
[10:17am] Started getting tunnel vision, thought nothing of it at first, but when rubbing my eyes did nothing, at all, I started getting worried.
[10:20am] Tunnel vision has blurred everything bar a small circle in the centre in my vision where I can just about make things out. This is when I realised that the shit is gonna hit the fan, so in search of painkillers I go.
[10:25am] Mission accomplished, thank god I know this office like the back of my hand, pre-empting anyone moving their chairs in front of me was a hard task. Neck 3x200mg Nurofen just as the tunnel vision starts to clear and my usual aura begins. Flashing lights just off centre to the right, in a sort of horizontal zig-zag pattern, only one line, but with vertical zig-zags within it, mainly red, orange and green in colour. Had to run downstairs to fix someone’s keyboard, when the idea of blogging this came to me, which brought me to 10:32
[10:37am] Now, zig-zags still there, I can feel the tension building up at the front right hand side of my head just above my eye. Not had a right sided migraine in a while, and yes, they do normally hurt more, told you this was gonna be a bitch. Those of you worried about me using a monitor etc, don’t. I have my screens set to decent resolutions with a very high refresh rate, also, I have had my eyes tested, and various other tests by various other opticians and doctors, monitors don’t cause my migraines. I just suffer from chronic migraine, full stop! Or “period” as an American might say. I have no triggers, chocolate, cheese, citrus and caffeine are the main known triggers, known as the 4Cs, but I removed them all from my diet for 4 months a year or so ago, and guess what, still got migraines. My aura is beginning to go, pain to come shortly, I will keep you updated.
[10:47am] Vision is beginning to return to normal, just spoke to a good friend of mine about the idea, and her response was, and I quote “GOD.. GO HOME” You may think she is right, I should go home, rest, recover and recuperate. So let me put this to you, if I were in a traffic accident, say I got knocked flying off my bike, landed so badly that I smashed my leg up, and needed it amputated (bit fucking drastic, I know) I would have two choices. Firstly, I could cry, whinge, moan and complain about it all, have someone look after me, fend for me, wait on me hand and foot, twenty four hours a day, seven days a week, fifty two weeks a year, or I could get on with my life, as normally as I possibly could, keep my chin up, and not let it get me down. Agreed? The same as anyone with a life affecting condition would do, epilepsy being a very good example.
Also, take my dad’s situation, back in 2000 he had 3 heart attacks, the last of which nearly killed him, one I had the most horrific experience of witnessing. He was in and out of hospital for the next six months to a year, he had angioplasties, stress tests, and eventually stents had to be implanted into the section of artery that kept collapsing. When he was eventually released from hospital permanently, he was prescribed a massive concoction of medications, just to keep him alive. Aspirin, Warfarin, ACE inhibitors, Lipid lowering med’s, other cholesterol controlling substances, you name it, he has probably taken it at some point since his attacks. Now, to the best of his ability, he carried on his “normal” life, his “normal” routine, as a father, husband and self-employed member of society. He continued to run his business the best he could, keep his life under control the best he could, and this man also suffers from migraine, which due to his other medication, he has to be careful with what he takes to combat the attack, as it could affect his heart. And that is the new perspective I have on this horrible affliction, I’m not going to let it get me down, I’m not going to let it control and dictate my life like it used to. Sure, I will take it easy when I am having an attack, but I refuse point blank to let this control my life any more. I will take the painkillers and anti-inflammatories, and try, to the best of my ability, not to let this get me down
[11:28am] That went on a bit, and I got distracted by work half way through, I just finished the last entry, the aura is completely gone, and the pain has shifted, I have a throbbing at the front left side of my head now, from the left temple to I would say about the dead centre of my left eye, as well as the throbbing. Ohh, and the nausea has begun… quite strongly.
[11:53am] For the first time since deciding to do this, I am thinking it may be a bad fucking idea. So bad that I just messaged my boss to ask for the PM off work. [Excuse the upcoming graphic-ness] I just made it to the toilet in time to be sick due to the pain I am in, my head is throbbing. Add to that the fact that when you retch it increases blood pressure to the head, causing more pain, causing more retching, it's a horrible cycle, one I have come to terms with during my years of suffering from migraine, one I wouldn't wish on my worst of enemies, and I mean that.
[12:07pm] Had enough, going home, and I think my initial point was made:
I’m going to try to stay at work, and stick this through, all for you, the reader, so you can try and comprehend what these do to me.
No matter how positive I think, how early I catch an attack and try and treat it, nothing helps. I think I could live as an amputee, I could even cope suffereing from epilepsy, as once your attack is over, you are semi back to normal, but with this pain, I just can't do it. I am gonna stop at the health centre on the way home to pick up a prescription for Tylex, these were the only painkillers I ever took that managed to at least control the pain I am in. The link below gives a good insight into some of the associated experiences with migraines, for now, this man needs his bed, and some dark.
http://www.mamashealth.com/migraine.asp
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